They Say

That it gets better. That things change, and heartbreak heals, and the world becomes a better place. What happens when you lose everything? What happens when you trust someone so much that you give them your life, only to have it ripped away? How can you pick yourself up again? I don't understand. I don't know how to have hope when every time I do it just gets crushed. I wanted everything for him, and he didn't even know. I wanted his dreams to come true, I wanted to cheer him on, I was willing to do anything it took to make everything he wanted possible. I was so beyond in love.. I stood up for him when his friends talked shit behind his back, I told everyone he was the greatest guy in the world, I lost friends over fights that he doesn't even know about.. I was so ready... So ready to just be his.. I believed everything he told me.. How do you pull yourself away from that?

Hello Happiness, How I've Missed You

Feeling like starting this up again. Marci's World, eh? Man I must've been caught up in myself. Well now it's like this. There's this boy. I've know him for 13 days. We've been dating for 8. And I love him. It's not a 'I'm pretty sure.' It's a 'Oh my god I fucking love this guy.' I'm completely consumed, my happiness is here. I found him. I actually found him. I'm so absorbed in the simplicity of the way things came to be, the pain I had to go through all seems a wasted effort to feel the security that I feel. Is this just hormones, is it crazy talk, is it puppy love, or is this that once in a life time feeling that comes out of absolutely no where? Someone explain this to me, because I'm done being rational. All logical thoughts are gone. I don't want them. I'm happy